Our daughter who turns 6 this week came to me and said,
“Mummy do you think it would be ok if I called you Mummy and Justene Mum?
I told her that she could call justene whatever she was comfortable with but I have to tell you she melted my heart.
I love seeing them interact together and I love how content my daughter is in our little family…..
She loves her two mummies……
It’s been too long since I last blogged……..
Life has been hectic in all the everyday things and the big things too.
Currently Justene is having a barage of tests to try and find the source of her pain, we are househunting. Still trying to work out if we want to spend more and buy a house with nothing left to do or buy a bit cheaper with minor things to do……. our biggest problem is land space. The blocks these days are just too tiny.
As for our relationship we’ve had a few rainy days. Justene has a higher sex drive than I do. Normal for most couples I believe??????
The thing is I think she equates my desire for sex as my love for her. Couldn’ be further from the truth.
I love her more now than I ever have. She’s my soulmate that I’m sure. She gets me…….
I love her quirks, our conversations, our life together…… I love her phone calls everyday and the way she loves me. I think she is sexy and undoubtedly one of the most beautful people I have ever met and had the pleasure to love and share my life with.
My sex drive wavers depending on my tiredness, how much the kid has been a turd and at the moment with the hopital tests, getting ready for holidays in september, househunting, making cakes, doing quotes, our daughters 6th birthday is on sunday which coincides with a visit from her dad who’s still my husband and her little brother who is 8 months younger than her and the product of the affair that broke our marriage and left me a single mum with a baby on the way……. I feel overwhelmed and not on solid ground. Truth is I’m having a little trouble keeping it together.
I just want to keep my family together and happy. Some days I feel i’m failing at that too.
We are almost two years in…….. Is this normal? Is this a problem?
I don’t have plans on going anywhere. She’s my forever….. I will find a way to show her just how much she means to me…….
Can we have and do it all?